Addiction

花时玖Mar 2019

4.0

Word count: 138K words
Chapters: 66

Summary

No matter how many times he went through the cycle of rebirth with his memories intact. But in this life, Madame Qin is his biological mother — an undeniable fact. So the harm she caused to Bai Qingci, he cannot forgive, yet he cannot hold her accountable either. Here and now, the only thing he can do is stay by her side and wait for the day she wakes up. Even if it takes ten years, twenty years, a lifetime...

Editor's review

The book uses cyclical memory and the mother-son relationship as narrative fulcrums, rendering the ethical dilemma of "unable to forgive, yet unable to hold accountable" with restraint and tension. Madame Qin is the perpetrator of the harm done to Bai Qingci, yet also the male lead's undeniable biological mother; this overlapping identity disables both revenge and familial love at once, leaving the character able only to keep vigil by the comatose Bai Qingci, completing a redemptive companionship through ten years, twenty years, even a lifetime of waiting. Hua Shijiu's narrative focus lies not in fierce conflict but in perseverance and torment amid the passage of time — suited to readers who enjoy high emotional intensity and somewhat weighty themes. While reading, pay attention to the weight of "memory" across the cycles: the more one remembers, the less one can excuse oneself through forgetting, and the more one understands why the male lead neither seeks accountability nor forgives. The work is not long, but its emotional aftertaste lingers; it suits slow reading in quiet solitude.

Who it's for

A good fit for

Romance readers who enjoy themes of cyclical rebirth, memory, and emotional redemption
Readers comfortable with heavy ethical dilemmas and a slow emotional pace
Readers who prefer first-person-style inner torment and high emotional intensity
Readers who want to experience the tug between family love and romantic love in a short work

Not a good fit for

Readers expecting light, sweet, fast-paced romance
Those sensitive to mother-son ethical conflict and harm-related plotlines
Readers who prefer strong plot twists and abundant action scenes

Reading tips

First grasp the setup that the male lead carries memories through cycles, then enter the emotional choices of the present life.
Viewing the Madame Qin and Bai Qingci relationship lines separately makes the male lead's dilemma easier to understand.
Best read continuously in quiet hours; emotional coherence matters more than fragmented reading.
After finishing, revisit the opening to re-appreciate the weight of the line "unable to forgive, yet unable to hold accountable."

版权信息
第一章宴会
第二章验货
第三章雨夜（一）
第四章雨夜（二）
第五章噩梦惊醒
第六章好价钱
第七章熟悉的陌生人
第八章一场空想
第九章回忆（一）
第十章回忆（二）
第十一章回忆（三）
第十二章那间公寓
第十三章闹脾气
第十四章女人是疯子
第十五章满意为止
第十六章白衬衫
第十七章想吃你做的饭
第十八章风吹日晒用大宝
第十九章任桥伟
第二十章出事
第二十一章朋友
第二十二章开玩笑
第二十三章
第二十四章
第二十五章故人
第二十六章脾气不好的老男人
第二十七章让我高兴
第二十八章一场梦
第二十九章说谎
第三十章
第三十一章做戏
第三十二章饿了吗
第三十三章随便你
第三十四章穿唐装的男人
第三十五章古董店
第三十六章玉镯
第三十七章噩梦
第三十八章言出必行
第三十九章我养你
第四十章父女团聚
第四十一章秦励
第四十二章催婚
第四十三章不欢而散
第四十四章愿意嫁给我吗
第四十五章隐情
第四十六章过去
第四十七章心事
第四十八章事发（一）
第四十九章事发（二）
第五十章车祸
第五十一章流产
第五十二章真相
第五十三章过往（一）
第五十四章过往（二）
第五十五章过往（三）
第五十六章新年快乐
第五十七章第三道裂痕
第五十八章始于斯而终于斯
第五十九章恩怨归尘（一）
第六十章恩怨归尘（二）
第六十一章恩怨归尘（三）
第六十二章恩怨归尘（四）
第六十三章结局
第六十四章番外（一）
第六十五章番外（二）

FAQ

Why can't the male lead hold Madame Qin accountable?

Because in this life Madame Qin is his biological mother — an undeniable fact. The blood relationship prevents him from holding her accountable as he would an enemy, yet the harm done to Bai Qingci prevents him from forgiving her, so he can only choose to keep vigil.

Is the main plot of the story waiting for Bai Qingci to wake up?

From the available material, all the male lead can do is keep vigil by Bai Qingci's side and wait for the day she wakes — even if it takes ten years, twenty years, or a lifetime. Waiting and perseverance form the core emotional line of the story.

What role does the cyclical rebirth setup play in the book?

The male lead goes through multiple cycles with his memories intact; those memories make the ins and outs of the harm clear to him and prevent him from escaping through forgetting. The cyclical setup heightens the emotional burden and lends the present vigil a stronger sense of fate.

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About the author

花时玖 Author

Hua Shijiu is a Chinese author of online literature about whom little public information is available. Five of her works can currently be confirmed, the best known being Addicted, Love at Second Sight, Marriage with Hands Tied, A Thought Becomes a Tribulation, and Love Left Behind in Time. Among them, Love at Second Sight served as the original novel for a television drama starring Wang Zuyi, which shows that her stories have the appeal to be adapted for the screen. Her writing is chiefly modern romance, often centering on the emotional entanglements, marriage choices, and turns of fate among urban men and women. Her plots move briskly, her character relationships are tightly focused, and she is skilled at creating tension through misunderstanding, reunion, and difficult decisions; the management titles also listed among her works suggest that her subject matter is not limited to a single genre. Because details such as her dates of birth and death and her nationality are not publicly known, it is difficult to sketch her life, and readers may instead begin with the works above and discover her light, dramatically charged narrative style.